... was it all on me?

I don't know what have I done wrong.
I've lost everything I've ever had except my family.
I never hurt or do evil to other people purposely.
I think some people were using me... I dunno, really.
But, was all the faults on me?

Now that I have lost all people, including my really-really great bestfriend I've ever had, I don't know what else I should do... I'm fragile now to a relationship. Any kind...

God, please help me not to fall back to my sin I once made. I'm losing grip at the moment. I don't wanna lose You again. I don't wanna be the lost sheep again.

I'm grateful I still have some people who still believes in me, who still cares for me; although there are only few of them. But, always be grateful of what you have, rite?

B'pnda, thanks for always being there for me. I do hope the fate will make me see you again in the future...