I feel Peace... what a nice feeling..

Usually, when I'm alone, I always feel lonely which leads me to feel depressed because I think I don't have anyone in the world and that being alone is a bad thing... I know it's a bad thought, but, yeah.. I often feel that way whenever I'm not occupied with any activities or when I have nothing to put my mind into.

But, in contray, at the moment I write this, I'm very alone in a room that I have the privilege to use on campus... hehehe... (I haven't returned the key.. they haven't asked.. :P naughty me..) and I feel very much peace with my life.

I feel everything seems to be correct. I have my own life, I'm an adult now (and seems my parents already understand this , which is a very good thing) and I can do whatever I want with responsibility without being chased as a child. I'm now treated as an adult... Yeah... What a great improvement.

Anyway... talking about alone and lonely... Although I only have several bestfriends (many acquintances and regular friends), and my relationships with them is kindda "far in the eye, close in the heart" I always believe that they are there and that they also feel that I am here. Whenever I need them, I can always count on them, and vice versa...

Yeah... I feel peace with my life at the moment. I have a business to help me occupy my energy, I have plans for my future (although on a short-term basis), and I can still live my life with just enough resources.

Yeah... I started to feel God's sovereignty (again) in my life.. Should I go back to Him now? Sigh... that would be for another contemplation...

Thanks God for every little tears and smile you've put me into...


Sigh....


ps. to P'nie... I can't believe you actually read my blog. Thanks for the comment :P You just need to see how big I am right now.. hahaha...