Finding the Answer

So... I've lived here for almost 3 months now, and I've made peace with my surroundings and been able to accept my condition with huge effort not to lose everything that I've achieved so far. Don't wanna spoil my chance...

Anyway....



Curious on why I post this picture? Here's the answer

2 days ago I heard from the radio that there would be an event for scouting held by proscout. I suddenly remembered my long-time desire on becoming a model (Huahahaha.... now I can laugh about it I guess...). I even took a course in 2002 in once prestigious modeling agency and school in Jakarta... (I just realized I haven't got my certificate yet...)

Okay, this agency who held the scouting event is the most well known agency in discovering new talents in the showbiz and entertainment industry for United States and all major market in the world such as Paris, Milan, Tokyo, Barcelona, etc. They are the one who discovered the new face of Estee Lauder. Now, I thought to myself that I have the opportunity to get the answer from the pro whether or not I could be in the industry, why shoudn't I go and find out?

And so I went to that event yesterday, and I found the answer: NO.... (can't you see it written on my forehead? Gosh I should've looked into the mirror before I even have the desire...), and my life goes on..... I'll just be the audience for modeling industry...

As far as I remembered, I once shared with my good, old-time friend (whom I expect she is now, though distance tear us part... although now we're only an hour away until December...) that I'm interested in the industry because of the glamorousity, fabulous life and the fame. Now, I think I can find it elsewhere if I still want to get those things in my life, but... I think I found another goal of life and that fame, glamour and the bling-bling are not included in it.

Having heard about the answer on one of my desire, now I'm curious no more and can say goodbye to it (read: modeling) and move on with my other unstoppable desire: singing.... Huahahahaha.....


ps. beachpanda... I wish we live closer too... =(