Rindu Ini...

Kuterjaga dari lelapku
Rasa ini tak terbendung
Tak terkira, tak terperi

Semesta,
Kabulkan mimpiku
Untuk sejenak miliki dirinya

Dalam dekapku
Dalam hangatku
Dalam pelukku
Memadu kasih bersama

Walau hanya sejenak...

An Evolution

The fallen angel has evolved
The angel is now flying without wings
That bright shining ★ showed some mercy;
showered the angel with some stardust

Will the angel survive?
Will the angel fall back down?
Only time will tell...

This feeling I have...

It's hard when you have a feeling about something or for someone yet you can't express it out loud...

"I wanna know why you're happy
I wanna know is it me that you miss?
I wanna know how are you doing every day
I wanna know do I even have a space in your mind and your heart?

'Coz...

I'm happy everytime I see you
I miss you every second of my life
I'm not doing okay 'coz I can't get ahold of you, yet
You are always on my mind and in my heart"

I hate this feeling but I'm happy that I'm able to feel this after being empty for quite some time; but it's killing me that I always prefer to just stop dreaming, to stop hoping, to stop wondering...

You gave me wings and made me fly towards the seventh heaven, where I always hope that I could reach the bright, shining ★: you...

But, I can't stand the journey I'm going through. I think my wings are broken now. I can't fly no more and I don't want to struggle anymore...

Just let me fall... Before it hurts me badly... Just let me fall, with my eyes looking at you, my bright, shining ★, that when I finally land and close my eyes, you are the last beautiful scene that I will see and always remember...

Clarity

I climbed through the mountains
The steep valleys, the rocky hills
Only to find it's not there

I walked through the forests
The lush trees, the misty air
Only to find it's not there

I walked through the deserts
The whispering sands, the stinging heat
And it's still not there

I swam through the rivers
The cold water, the wide passage
Again, it's still not there

I dove into the oceans
The deep blue sea, the enigmatic silence
And again ... (sigh) ...
It's still not there

Fought myself not to drawn, I rose
Forced myself not to collapse, I walked

Empty and longing, I breathed
Torn and shattered, I discerned

I pause ...

I surrender
I let it catch me in peace, eternally

"My Love,
here I wait
Fly me up,
to be with thee"

Reposting: untitled

Ada sebuah rumput di teras rumahku
Hijau dengan pucuk cokelat sebesar bulir beras
Selalu menguning pada satu masa
Menghijau pada masa yang lain
Namun tidak pernah layu

Begitukah rasa sayang dan cinta?
Menguning ketika tidak ada yang bisa dicintai
Menghijau ketika rasa itu tumbuh pada seseorang yang hadir
Dan kembali menguning ketika seseorang itu pergi menjauh
Meski rasa itu tidak pernah lekang sepanjang masa

Kupalingkan pandangku pada langit malam
Berawan dan merah tanpa kehadiran sang bintang
Sesendu perasaan hati yang galau dan gundah
Sambil kuhembuskan asap
Dari batang yang membara

...

(previously posted on 11/2/08 @ 11.30 PM)

A Metamorphosis of Love

Often times I hear stories from my friends' experiences, I watch stories portrayed from movies and then I read stories from many books. Some of the stories ends happily (whether it's ever after or not, that's another issue) while most of them ends unhappily. Together with my own experiences, if I may, I would like to conclude my view on mankind's never ending issue of all time: Love.

The journey of Love is like a metamorphosis of A Butterfly

Sekecil telur kupu-kupu ia hadir di dalam hati
Nyaman di dalam naungan kelembutan
Sampai ia menetas dan tumbuh

Merayap, mengenyam cinta dan kasih
Dari hati yang digerogoti dengan pasti
Hingga kenyang, tiada bersisa

Dalam puas ia diam
Stagnan di tengah hening
Memintal kabut, membalut diri
Menutup diri, merenung
Menyembuhkan luka

Ia pahami peran hidupnya
Ketika hati sudah tidak lagi mencinta
Ketika rasa itu sudah tidak lagi dapat diberi
Ketika hasrat itu sudah tidak lagi dapat diterima
Ia harus dapat berangkat dan pergi
Lepas dari kungkungan perasaan yang mendalam
Melepaskan diri dan mencintai dari kejauhan

Dalam ketidaksadaran ia menjelma
Menjadi sosok yang indah
Siap menebarkan cerita
Berbagi kasih kepada dunia

Cinta itu tidak hilang
Rasa itu tidak mereda
Hanya, Ia be(r)evolusi

Intermezzo # 3

Ketika malam tiba

Hati pun gundah di dalam sepi

Kerlipan bintang di balik awan

Menemani hati yang merindu


Kekasih, engkaukah di sana?

Menjaga rasa ini... hasrat ini...

(late at night, August 6th 2008)

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Intermezzo # 2

Apa daya hati yang sedang bergelora

Ketika dihadapkan dengan kenyataan

Penantian yang membuat nelangsa

Menjadi satu-satunya jawaban atas kegundahannya

(late at night, June 6th 2008)

Intermezzo # 1

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Give me a hug and kiss me good night

Caress me with your sweet and tender loving care

Hold me in your arms and promise me

You'll stay by my side when the sun greets the dews

But don't wake me up 'coz

I don't want time do us part



(late at night, May 28th 2008)